“Cinta Superficial”
September 19, 2007
Whua…akhirnya bbrp hr ni kay refreshing aja stlh deadline lingkaran setan kmrn. Aq bnr2 ga mau nyentuh file kerjaan n pgn ga mikirin hal2 yg bs bqn stressor.
Kumpul2 ma keluarga, nonton bareng ma anak2 kozt (Prince’s Hour!). Ga lupa target khatam AlQur’an (ayo smgt…smgt…inget a’a yg mgkn disana uda juz 10). Pas lg enjoy-enjoynya…tiba-tiba kepikiran hal2 roman…yaiks…pdh dgn ksibukan yg uda kay workaholic, aq pikir mslh itu bklan jd hal ga penting.
Jd suka merenung de. Slama ni kaynya aq uda jd penganut ‘cinta superficial’ alias cinta di permukaan. Kalo dirunut2 petualangan cintaku (tsah…) tnyata bkomitmen itu hal yg aq takutin. Sbg manusia bebas, aq ga suka kalo hubgn uda smqn dalam. So, biasanya kalo cow uda mulai serius, kaynya uda pgn nge-cut aja. Pdh…blum jg dicoba, tp uda parno duluan.
Mmh…knp bs bgini ya? Well, let see with psychology glasses: sesuai teori, masa lalu yg m’bentuk kepribadian ssorg. Tmsk didlmnya pola asuh n lingkungan. Masa kecilku wonderful, tp emg sejak kecil aq ga gmpg pcaya kalo org laen bnr2 care n sayang ma aq. Kaka2 jg pnah blg bgitu. Aq srg ngerasa dikelilingi byk org, tp ga ada yg bnr2 mau memusatkan dirinya ke aq. Pdh sbg sanguinis, I’d love to be the center of attention.
Bgtu jg dgn cow2 yg pdkt or at least jd gebetan…aq ngerasa ga ada yg bnr2 care. Mrk cm silau ma outer beauty-ku. Cuma krn aq seorg sovia. Mrk ga ada yg bnr2 pgn ngertiin sp aq sbnrnya n kay apa aq. Know what I like n dislike. Know what my obsession. Then still support me with his loyal smile. Makanya ga ada yg bs bqn aq berani mengubah superficial love itu jd deep love.
Hmmm…jd iri ma mba’qu & TTMnya. Si TTM itu bs jd sobat, tukang benerin computer, sinterklas, donator, asisten bwt dy. Pokoknya di kala susah senang, mrk bs ngadepin bareng2. Si TTM bs nerima mba’qu apa adanya, bahkan hal2 ga masuk akalnya. She never be alone, bcoz he’s always on her side….
uh, melo…hidup kadang aneh tanpa ssorg di samping qta….
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agongpor | September 23, 2007 at 7:18 am
(Maap, lagi improve english)
LOVE is a BIG thing,
Living without LOVE is a BIG mistake,
To LOVE is a BIG decision,
If you’re in LOVE you’ll feel a BIG happiness,
To be LOVEd is everyone BIG wish,
I wish you’ll find your true LOVE in your BIG life.
(I think to be your LOVE is a BIG bless ^_^)
NB:
As muslims, we live in a border, a strict one.
I think every guy around you understand this very well, that’s why it’s so hard for them to show their love without any (perasaan berdosa basa inggrisnya apa ya …?) guilty feeling (bener nggak ya?).
About TTM, is it OK? Without marriage, I think it’s so hard to so our LOVE, is it?
To choose the right guy you just have to let it to ALLOH, after that it’s all your decision, to LOVE him or to DUMP him (I’m sorry if it is too rude), I think you know it better than me, do you?
Oh, I’m sorry, I’ve talk too much (it’s not normal for a guy isn’t it?). Actually I’m not a talkative person, I love too listen. But when I write, I often ‘talk’ too much.
Alhamdulillahi jazaa killahu khoiron.
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agongpor | September 23, 2007 at 7:22 am
Maap, kayaknya commentku ada yg salah:
“About TTM, is it OK? Without marriage, I think it’s so hard to so our LOVE, is it?”
harusnya
“About TTM, is it OK? Without marriage, I think it’s show hard to so our LOVE, is it?”
Sori dori mori banget ya … V(^_^)
3.
agongpor | September 23, 2007 at 7:22 am
Maap, kayaknya commentku ada yg salah:
“About TTM, is it OK? Without marriage, I think it’s so hard to so our LOVE, is it?”
harusnya
“About TTM, is it OK? Without marriage, I think it’s so hard to show our LOVE, is it?”
Sori dori mori banget ya … V(^_^)
4.
copicopi | September 25, 2007 at 5:23 am
AJKK bwt beautiful wordsnya…
I think love make us like on a rollercoaster
we scream, we scare, we go insane
and we don’t have any idea of it
5.
agongpor | September 28, 2007 at 4:21 am
Yes, I think so too. LOVE make us like a fool and even worse, we know it. Sometime if we love someone it doesn’t make any sense.
BUT, It feels GREAT, isn’t it?
(I wonder if I could feel it again ……?)