Sori-dori-mori…lama bgd ga ngingoni blog aliran idealis narsis ini. Lg asik tholabul ilmi ke negeri gadhink mangoe. Namanya jg manusia makhluk lemah, jd musti sering2 dicharge biar energi keimanannya tetep penuh. It’s one way I choose. Kalo tmn2 kulku kebykan musim liburan gini pada pulang kampong, ngelencer ke luar kota or ngeceng di mall doang [so, pathetic], luckily I am, aq msh pny kesempatan bwt ngecharge keimanan ke tmp yg atmosfernya lbh oke. Kesempatan tentu meliputi waktu longgar, biaya ada, kemauan kuat, org2 terdekat jg support. Perfect blend. Ga smua org bs ngerasain apa yg aq rasain skrg. Ehm…bnr2 nikmat. Aq suka kehidupan mcm gini.
Setiap hari dlm jalan Allah dgn rute:
sholat subuh di msjd [yess! Aq bs bangun euy] – ngaji abudaud [with okrek-nya mr.yanto]– tiduran bentar -sarapan ala wartegnya bu hindun yg yummy – prepare – ngaji bukhori [ngantuk’s time]– istirahat – lunch sambil ngerumpi ma anak2 kozt – sholat dhuhur [di msjd lg] – baca the Pelican Brief – ngaji muslim [srg boloz, abiz uda isi] – sholat ashar [still masjid] – benah2 kamar sambil dgrin lagu2 top 40 - dinner melingkar ma anak2 kozt [dgn menu plg enak dlm sehari!] – mandi – sholat magrib + dengerin nasehat dr ulama or calon Paku Bumi [niy acara favo-ku] – sholat hajad – sholat isya – ngaji abudaud – sesi curhat ma anak2 kozt – connect ma tmn2 sby – meloncat ke alam mimpi
Entah knp segalanya jd lebih simple kalo qta hidup condong ke urusan akhirat…kay org2 yg hidup di negeri gadhink mangoe ini, lgkp dgn konflik dan dinamikanya. Mesq mall n internet ga ada, truz apotik tuh puluhan kilo jauhnya. Tapi kaynya smua bisa teredam dgn sejuknya hembusan angin, persawahan membentang hijau, seruan adzan mendayu-dayu dan suara langkah kaki menuju panggilan Allah. Nikmatnya hidup di kota santri…
February 11, 2008
Kdg aq ngerasa di jokam, cew ga pny kebebasan berekspresi. Pdh secara katanya penduduk dunia plg byk cew, bahkan smp akhir jaman. Nah, kalo dianalisis itu berarti cew-cew jokam bakal jd SDM yg potensial bwt dikembangin lbh positif lg. Mksdku mbokyo’o ada pembinaan khusus gitu. Slama ni aq ngerasa cew kdg jd pemanis doang bwt acara2 n posisi-posisi strategis tetep didominasi cow. Pdh kalo para pembina itu mau merestrukturisasi diskriminasi gender yg uda terjadi, insyaAllah di jokam akan muncul srikandi-srikandi yg pny andil dlm perjuangan QHJ. In one condition: percayakan suatu hal n jgn pandang sebelah mata.
Emang sih ada statement kalo Islam tuh agama lelaki [coz firman Allah n sabda Nabi mayoritas ditujukan pd rojul] n negara qta kulturnya jg patriarki, tapi mustinya ada sedikit egaliter di jokam. World is turning, time keep running, and people changing. Helooo… byk perubahan yg nuntut penyesuaian. Sehrsnya cew ga cuma jd warga kelas dua yg ngelakuin sesuatu nunggu dikomando cow. Cew blh pny inisiatif, konsep, n pemetaan. Adapun pelaksanaannya bs jg disupport sm cow. Asal lingkup yg dijamah cew tuh ga keluar dr ketentuan yg uda berlaku. Cew jg bisa bqn perubahan.
Rasanya ini bkn feminisme buta ato emansipasi yg terlambat, apalagi radikal. Aq cm prihatin ngeliat keadaan sekitar. Perhatiin de, byk cew jokam yg terjebak dlm kehidupan seneng2 [pacaran, nge-mall, keluyuran tnp manfaat], ato dunia kesepian [dilampiasin ke internet, kenalan via HP, nganggur ga jelas], ato justru melanggar [ni ga perlu aq jelasin]. Hrsnya pembina2 itu tau donk, ini krn cew krg dibina scr khusus n ga bs nyalurin energinya dgn positif. Akhirnya tersalurkan de, ma hal2 di atas. Coba cew2 jokam tuh dibina serius smp pondasinya kuat. Energi mereka diwadahi dlm program yg butuh partisipasi mrk. Bs dlm bentuk penambahan knowledge, skill, ato spiritual. Disupport dgn kontinyu. So, cew ga cuma akan mengembangkan dirinya, tp jg mengembangkan dunia QHJ.
PS for the person in charge: I realize, they have many more-more important problem to solve, but they just have to give us a little attention, give us a chance to grow, give us trust.
February 11, 2008
What will I do if I’m not getting married, when all my friend married yet? Rasanya aq membayangkan diriku berjalan dgn mantel warna khaki, syal violet n kacamata raybanku di trotoar pedestrian plg nyaman sedunia di daerah Fremantle. Awal musim semi slalu menyenangkan. Aq memandang jalanan yg rame turis lg weekend ke Galeria Morley, Innaloo Shopping Centre, dan Warwick. Truz berharap ada adegan flirting keren ala Nathalie Portman n si kakoi Jude Law di Closer.
Di sana aq jd pengajar QH di kelompok jokam yg skrg lg berkembang sambil ngambil master full-scholarship di University of Western Australia, lalu plg ke Indonesia utk kerja jd jurnalis internasional di Discovery Channel. Oya, kalo aq terlalu kayaraya, aq pgn ngadopsi anak-anak miskin kay Angelina Jolie. Kalo perlu bqnin anak-anakku sekolah berbasis QHJ plus pendidikan karakter. What a perfect picture.
February 11, 2008
Pgn seh crita bout pglmn dua hari ma pasien RSJ Magelang yg konyol abiez n ‘unbelievable we can knowing people like them around us’ ato orang-orang amazing di panti cacat mental di Pakem. They’ve made me thankful so much. Greatful to be there…Unfortunately, aq lg busy preparing asrama Kutubussitah @ Gama…
well, maybe picture can tell everything…
February 11, 2008
So happy when I saw their happiness. Correct! Jd matchmaker independent emang asik gila. Apalagi yg lg dlm ‘backpackers voyage’ kay aq ini. Gagal seh tentu pernah, namanya jg mslh hati. Ga bisa dipaksain. But, don’t know why, aq ma sist Dew suka bgd ma profesi nonofficial ini. Selain gratis wisata kuliner, rasanya enjoy bgd ngeliat tmn2ku berhasil ketemu ma soulmate idamannya dgn atau tnp campur tgnku scra lgsg. Mulai dr proses ketemu-pdkt-cocok yg penuh dgn bumbu-bumbu seru buat dituangin ke novel. Byk doa ajah, taon niy dua pasangan proyek matchmakerku jd merit. Aq uda bayangin, kalo mrk smp ke marriage, aq jd groom-mate plg keren di sana.
Rela de, jd single for a while asalkan bs jd perantara pertemuan antar belahan jiwa yg sbnrnya uda terikat benang merah kasat mata. N tentu aja pertemuanku ma pahala membandingi 100 bidadari. Yippie key yey!
February 11, 2008
Si Knot sobatku, bilang: Kalo kamu pgn tau orang bener-bener suka ma kamu atau enggak, coba de minta tolong sesuatu. Truz liat seberapa cepet, gigih, dan bersemangatnya dia dalam menolong kamu. Biasanya dia akan berusaha bikin kamu puas dgn servicenya [dlm hal tolong menolong tentu ajah]. Kalo lagi iseng, kerjain ajah sekalian dgn keinginan mustahil: nyulik si Giring-Nidji untuk disekap di kamarmu n konser sesuai requestmu. Huehehe. Kalimat terakhir itu fiktif belaka dari si nidjiholic ini.
But, kalimat awalnya bener lo. Sobatku ini pernah buktiin pas minta seorg cow ngajarin dia suatu mata kuliah berbau eksak. Nah, si cow disuruh dtg ke koztnya. Janjian jam 2, eh si cow uda dtg jam 1. On time gila. Tentu aja si knot msh di rmhnya yg jarak pjalanannya 1,5 jam dr tmp kozt. Alhasil tuh cow nunggu lg. Pas si knot smp, tuh cow ttp dgn senang hati jd mentor gratis. So, si knot hampir selalu pake teori itu bwt ngetes cow. Ajib.
Si knot emang observer cinta sejati. Buktinya, aq yg naïf ini ga pernah kepikiran kay gitu. Dulu aq pikir itu krn cow suka nolongin cew n sebaliknya, that’s all. . Kan beda kutub saling tarik menarik itu wajar. Tapi kaynya perlu dibuktiin tuh. Ampuh ga, ya?
February 11, 2008
I’ve got this quote from a nouvellete in a gossip magazine [of course this is my mom’s bible, not mine]. Fiuh…this is shows how’s love could be so mean. Masa sesuatu yg ga bisa qta dapetin malah bakal paling sulit dilupakan. It’s not fair… But, maybe it’s true. Ecspecially for the qonquerer-club. Huehehe.
Kay teori ‘hard-to-get’ effect di psi social, maqin susah qta ngedapetin sesuatu itu, qta bakal maqin menghargainya. Coz I can’t reach him, I can’t replace him with another. His position is get stronger. So, another guyz is just like a commercial break, and he’s the box-office movie. Crazee. I hate to say this. It just like I can’t control myself.
Ok, back to topic. Actually right now I’m trying to evaluate. Is this just an euphoria for a while, coz ‘cinta-yang-tak-teraih’ itu adalah serpihan puzzle yg ilang n bqn qta penasaran selama hidup? Or this is a true feeling? Smuanya tumpang tindih, lo.
Somehow, it blast on my mind: is it possible to be some punishment for the qonquerer? Oh, it was a curse. That’s why I should have an apology as soon as possible. Someone should heal me. I think the cure is being victim in some eventual trap. Do u agree?
February 8, 2008
Sometimes I thought that I’m afraid to commitment. There’ll always a big excitement when I begin a relationship. Moreover when I trying to attract them n to keep them tight in a curiousity. Like a spider trap the victim. It just like…ur adrenaline all over ur body. Then stupid question in mind: is he the one? Always like that. Like a circle of evil. We see, we meet, we talk, we flirt each other.
But, when they’re already in hand, I walk to the door. Mission accomplished. I say goodbye. Always like that. God, I don’t know when it over? I’ve tried to pay attention, but somehow they’re not interesting anymore. Don’t say they’re my toys. They were not like that at all. For God sake, they’re great guys with a great intention [it was amazing to knew them]. They’re just wanna make me happy. But, I don’t have any idea…is there something wrong with me? God, I won’t ask for more. I want something simple. It just like a song …
I love u to love me, I need u to need me
February 8, 2008
