“Always like that” 29 Janvier 08

Sometimes I thought that I’m afraid to commitment. There’ll always a big excitement when I begin a relationship. Moreover when I trying to attract them n to keep them tight in a curiousity. Like a spider trap the victim. It just like…ur adrenaline all over ur body. Then stupid question in mind: is he the one? Always like that. Like a circle of evil. We see, we meet, we talk, we flirt each other.
But, when they’re already in hand, I walk to the door. Mission accomplished. I say goodbye. Always like that. God, I don’t know when it over? I’ve tried to pay attention, but somehow they’re not interesting anymore. Don’t say they’re my toys. They were not like that at all. For God sake, they’re great guys with a great intention [it was amazing to knew them]. They’re just wanna make me happy. But, I don’t have any idea…is there something wrong with me? God, I won’t ask for more. I want something simple. It just like a song …
I love u to love me, I need u to need me